EVERYTHINGS ALRIGHT! fuck not.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
heythere,
i don't know how many times in my life i've repeated myself 'everything's gonna be alright'.
thousands, probably. and yet, a lot of things aren't alright. i know it might sound weird, but you
know those tv shows, with a lot of drama and -bad- things happening every single episode, kind
of like ugly betty. well, if you really think about it, your life is somewhat like that. yes, i swear. you
just don't know, and don't think about it, cause you don't see a résumé of your life every
thursday night at 8 pm. you probably already said that those drama-comedy shows are stupid,
fake, and ridiculous. but they're based on real people, real events, and real things. it's no science
fiction, no harry potter, no lord of the rings, no spider-man .. whatever else.
anyway, lately this has been haunting my mind.i've been scared to do the wrong move, and get
hit by a bus, if you can see what i mean. i've been scared to do this, that or anything. i'm usually
not like that, i usually do whatever i want, whenever i want. but i've been thinking about where
this might get me, and how it could affect my life. i've always done what i wanted without really
thinking, i'm one of those people working very hard until they get what they want. you know,
those people who don't stop at all, until they get that thing. well, that's me. and probably you
too, and probably someone else too. then, around us, other people are sitting down, relaxing,
taking life very easy, and somehow waiting for death and nothing else. it's a very interesting
contrast, and when you think about it for too long it gets confusing.
shud i continue liking her?
Why is life such a colorFOOL place?
but right now it's colorLESS!
darn! and believe me, these are only 2/50000 of the questions running in circle in my mind.
i guess it's normal to get to a time in your life where you need to make the point of many things,
where you ask yourself a lot of questions. but still, it's a strange moment. am i gonna die
tomorrow? will i ever have children? am i going to get the work i want to get? is the planet
going to explode tomorrow?
what ever tomorrow brings me, i'll be there.
hope.
something new?
rights.
bye... S:
" i love my dingdong. i swear i do(: "
